So it has been forever since I've written on here and I'm determined to be better about it... and I started several blogs a month or so ago, but because my life is crazy I never finished them, but I've decided to post them anyways, and from now on I may just post partial postings that I can come back to later, but at least I'm posting them. Thanks for being patient with my ramblings!
OK, this was from right before we left for CO (mid Nov.):
First of all, I think Caleb totally spoke (or sang) prophetically into my life the other day. He was outside on the swingset, playing with Naomi, and out of nowhere started singing a song from the movie, "Joseph, King of Dreams." The words he was singing were as follows:
You know better than I, You know the way. I've let go of the need to know why, 'cause you know better than I.
As he was singing the song, I felt the Lord say to me that He's bringing me to a place where I'm getting a deeper understanding of what that means for my life. For so long I've been questioning why God has been saying "not yet" to me in regards to following my call to become a missionary. In hindsight, I've seen several things that have given me glimpses of why He's kept me here for this time, but it never fails that the next time I think it's time to go and He continues to say "not yet" I get crazy and wonder if I'll ever get on the field.
In thinking over that movie (and reading through the life of Joseph), I was humbled when I try to even compare my life to his. It caught me for the first time that Joseph felt called to great things... he had dreams about God raising him up to do great things and not only did God not do it like Joseph probably imagined, He probably did just the opposite! Thank you, Lord for speaking to me through my 2 year old!
